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Pietro Politano

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Saturday, April 27, 2013
Last week I went to see a medium and I can't stop thinking about it.

I want to record it somehow before I completely forget as the memory of the things he said to me are already fading.

It was a group clairvoyancy evening at my best friends school. The medium, Pietro Politano, also works in some capacity with schools in our area as his 'day job', so he already knew my friend. I went with my Mum and my sister, and I thought it would just be something fun, and that even if we got a message I'd take it with a massive pinch of salt because he knows my friend, and I don't know what she might have told him about me/us, and that he would probably already know about the circumstances around my Dad's death.

Pietro came on and gave a short message to another woman, then he turned to my Mum and said "can I work with you?" My Mum said yes, he asked if we were there as a family and said he would speak to us as a family and he spoke about a couple of things and then he turned to me and said "can I work with you?"

I said yes.

He said a couple of things to me, which are fairly hazy in my memory but I think it was about how I had spirits around me trying to calm me, and I started to cry, and then he said "you see lights, don't you?" For some reason, I found it quite difficult to understand what he was saying to me and asked him to repeat himself and he said again "lights, you see lights, don't you?" It wasn't really a question, nothing he said was really a question, it was a statement. I was totally confused and everthing seemed really strange around me and I had a little voice in my head, tugging on my sleeve like a small child and trying to remind me of something that was just beyond my memory, and I kind of shook my head but then he said "sparkles, you see blue sparkles" and it hit me with 100% certainty.

After my Dad had died, I kept seeing little sparkly bits of light in front of my eyes. It worried me a little bit as when I'd blink they wouldn't go away and they were increasing in the time I could see them for and I could concentrate on them. I put it down to the fact that I was crying a lot and not sleeping properly and made a mental note to go to the opticians as it had been a while since I'd had my eyes tested, but then after one particular session of it in the kitchen which had been the longest yet, I didn't notice it happen again, but when Pietro said "blue sparkles" I knew these little dots of light were what he meant.

I hadn't told my friend about them - I hadn't told anyone about them.

Pietro nodded, he knew he was right and that it was just taking me a little while to realise what he was talking about. "Well," he said. "These lights, these sparkles, they're the spirits that are around you that you can see."

He'd already established that we'd lost someone very dear to us, and he said I talked to a photograph of them, which I do. When I see a photograph of my Dad, I talk to him, and it feels very intense. It feels differently than when I just talk to him in my head, it's almost as if I can feel him there with me, that I know he's heard me, that I can feel him reacting to what I'm saying.

He was talking to me for a bit longer then he went back to my Mum and asked her if she had any grandchildren, then he turned back to me and said "I've just got to let you know - there's a baby. There's a baby coming." Everyone on our table kind of exploded a bit then, my Mum and sister are desperate for me to have a baby and my friend and her Mum and Grandma were on our table too so they were saying some things too. It was so hard for me, that was what I so desperately wanted to hear. I ask God for a baby all the time, I ask my Dad to send me one too. For him to say that there was one coming, I just can't put into words how that made me feel. He then went on to say "I'm never normally wrong about these things, I once said it to a woman and she didn't believe me as she had been trying already for two and a half years, then I saw her not long after and she told me she was pregnant". I wish I could have asked him about it, asked him if he could elaborate, ask him what he saw, but no one knows that we've been trying for a baby. Whenever anyone asks them, we always say that we'd like to have kids but it's not quite the right time yet. I like that answer because it satisfies whoever is asking, but we're not lying. Obviously it hasn't been the right time yet otherwise we would surely have a baby by now.

He carried on talking to us, he was with us for quite a while. He said some other things, most of which I can't remember, he said things like last Christmas had been particularly hard on us all but this Christmas would be a family Christmas and would be much better, and he said that my sister had been having headaches, and we all just sat there like nodding dogs, all three of us, saying yes to absolutely everything he said. Then he said to us "does the name Stephen mean anything to you? Stephen or Steve?" I literally couldn't believe it. Everything he said to us had already been spot on but then he said this name to us. Stephen is my Dad's cousin, who died when I was a little girl in the same way my Dad did. I can only remember seeing him a few times as he was in the RAF and lived in Wales, but I loved him a lot, he was always so kind to us and made us laugh and I remember my Dad taking me out into the garden and sitting me down and telling me that he'd died. I remember it perfectly. I was astounded about the fact that Pietro had just given us his name, just came out with it. I've been to see another medium in the past and they've said something like "I've got someone here who 's name begins with a B... I mean, P... Peter... Paul... Pat..." so for this medium to just come right out and say the name Stephen straight away I was just... completely in awe. Then further in the conversation, he said he had a clean shaven man with him, and my Mum couldn't think who it would be, and then Pietro said "does the name Harry mean anything to you?" Harry is my Uncle also on my Dad's side who has also passed away. He gave us not just one name, but two!

The thing about it all as well is that everything he said to me, everything he said to my Mum, everything he said to my sister... My friend wouldn't have known any of it. He didn't say anything specifically about my Dad. She might have known my Uncle Stephen's name, but that would be it.

At the end of the show, we went to talk to him and my Mum asked him about having a private reading done, and he gave her a card. Then he turned to me and asked me if I was okay, and told me "everything will be okay. Stop whittling." I almost laughed out loud at that, as I have done nothing but whittle on in my mind and to Adam about babies for goodness knows how long. I stress about it so much.

My mind is officially blown, and I'm so thankful I went. I've felt such a sense of peace and calm since I wsaw him. I feel like, because of everything that has happened to us over the past year or so, I have not been myself, and even my faith was shaken. I feel more like myself now than I have done for a long time, and it hasn't stopped me hurting about my Dad, but it has helped me. I feel restored in myself and in my faith. I feel like I know now that even though when I speak to God I might not get an answer straight away but it doesn't mean that he hasn't heard me. I 100% believe that Pietro was communicating with the spirit world.

I can't wait to go and see him again.

Three Things

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Thursday, November 01, 2012
I'm trying to stay as happy and positive as is even remotely possible in this kind of situation. I'm still sad beyond belief, and had a particularly bad night a couple of nights ago where I just couldn't stop sobbing and I woke up the next morning looking particularly horrendous. But I'm trying to find the joy in the little things, so I just wanted to write about three happy things from this week:

  • I joined Slimming World. I know, I know - I've been here before. But I really want to try hard and commit to it for the long haul now. I want a baby, and I know that I need to lose weight to make it happen. Both Adam and I can't wait to start a family, I'm ready for my little girl Ivy Louise or my little boy Austin Peter.

  • Sammy and I went out for the day to Ripley Castle. We did this today, and it was actually really lovely. Ripley is beautiful, it's just my cup of tea, old quaint town with cute little shops. I loved it. We even paid to go into the Castle itself, and did a guided tour of the house as the family that own it still live in it. There was an absolutely stunning staircase and Sammy wants to get married there. It's been around since the 1500's or something, and there are painted portraits of the Ingilby family's ancestors. There are things like recipe books, diaries, letters... I'd love to have such a record of my family's past. Makes me even more determined to start being better at documenting our life.

  • Adam and I booked a two night trip to London for New Years Eve! I'm so excited. I love London, and we're stopping in what looks to be a lovely hotel, I absolutely cannot wait. I checked with Mum if she minded if we went. I feel like Christmas is going to be really hard this year, but so is New Years Eve. We always went to my Mum and Dad's for New Years Eve. I don't know what we'll do now without my Dad. So I'm glad to have something to look forward to, and to take my mind off of things and hopefully cheer me up after a sad Christmas.
  • It's best by bus

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    Thursday, October 25, 2012
    My Dad's funeral took place on the 23rd October at 3pm. It was actually the most beautiful service I've ever been to, and so many people turned up. Not sure of the exact number, but we guessed it to be about 145 as all but five of the order of services were handed out. It actually helped to see so many people that cared about my Dad.

    Uncle Gary told me that one man who came from Coca Cola said that he didn't even work with Dad, he came because he used to get changed next to him.

    I know nothing will bring my Dad back, and I'm absolutely devastated and heartbroken at the fact that he's no longer here. But it really helped me to see that my Dad was so loved, and that so many people knew how wonderful he was.

    vintage bus

    We got a vintage bus to take us to the crematorium instead of going in funeral cars. It was perfect; I loved the sign on the side which read "it's best by bus" - Dad would have loved it.

    Dad's friend Gary read a poem out about Dad, and I might post it here because it was really lovely. Dad wore his suit that he wore to my wedding in his coffin.

    I can't believe that I no longer have my Dad. I don't know what we're supposed to do now. It was very rare that I would do something with just Mum, or Dad, or one of my sisters - it was always all of us.

    Dad I love you and miss you so much but I know I'll see you again xx

    Dad

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    Sunday, October 14, 2012

    On Friday 12th October 2012, between 12:30-12:35pm, my wonderful and much loved father died tragically. Our entire family is absolutely devastated and heartbroken and still very much in a state of complete shock. Dad, I already miss you and I love you so so much.



    Have your cake and eat it!

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    Tuesday, March 29, 2011
    Hello! How was your weekend?

    Mine was kind of low key, but fun nontheless! Spent most of it hanging out with Adam and Izzy! It's nice to be able to get some time with Adam, he's been working crazy hours lately as has recently started a new business!

    On Sunday, my parents invited us round for dinner. It was delicious! I didn't snap any photos but we started with a turnip soup my sister had made which was SO NICE! I'm going to attempt to make it at home myself sometime soon. We had a roast dinner made by my Mum (also delicious! Is it just me or does anyone else think you just can't beat your Mum's cooking?!) and then for dessert I brought these:

    dessert plate

    They were so good! I love to make desserts but myself, my parents and my sisters are all on health kicks. I was going to bake a cake at first, but I know how hard it is to control your portion size when presented with a gorgeous looking dessert. Then I remembered my Auntie had given me a square cupcake pan for Christmas, so I decided to make individual cakes. I just used a regular sponge mix, sliced them in half, added some sliced strawberries and a little whipped cream, then dusted them with icing sugar. They were really nice, and it was so easy to just have one! (Well, my Dad had two, and Adam had about four!) We all felt like we'd had a treat, without derailing our diets.

    dessert plate close

    I hope you all had good weekends too - what's on your agenda for the upcoming week?

    Thanks Dad!

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    Friday, August 22, 2008
    I went for a daytrip to the seaside with my parents and two younger sisters earlier on this week. It was actually a really lovely day! I enjoyed it so much, it's really nice being able to catch up with everyone again after so long away from home.

    We went to a place called Bridlington which is on the North East coast of England so it was quite chilly! We packed a picnic lunch and I made some bulgur wheat salad, which was actually really nice but I was so busy enjoying it I forgot to take a photo! I still have some left in the pantry though, so I'm sure I'll make some more soon.

    While we were wandering around the town (it was too chilly to spend any time on the beach, which is typical of English seaside hehe) we passed a cooking shop, so being the avid baking/cooking fan that I am, dragged all my family inside for a thorough look around. I could have spent a fortune there! My friends are all obsessed with clothes and shoe shops, but me? Give me a cooking supplies shop anyday! I found a massive tube of cookie cutters while I was in there too, which my dad kindly bought for me as a gift!

    The next day my sister and I couldn't wait to try them out, but first things first, we laid them all out on the carpet so we could get a good look at them! I'm such a kid, I love any stuff like this and I've never had any proper cookie cutters of my own before. My grandma used to have some when I was little, and I used to love it when she'd let me use them.

    cookies, baking, cooking, cutters

    So this post is just really to say thanks to my dad for the present! And also to let you know to stay tuned, as an extremely delicious cookie post is coming soon!

    (This post is one of a few that have been transferred over from an old blog as part of the process of updating this blog with all my old entries from other blogs/journals for posterity)