Three Things

I'm trying to stay as happy and positive as is even remotely possible in this kind of situation. I'm still sad beyond belief, and had a particularly bad night a couple of nights ago where I just couldn't stop sobbing and I woke up the next morning looking particularly horrendous. But I'm trying to find the joy in the little things, so I just wanted to write about three happy things from this week:

I joined Slimming World. I know, I know - I've been here before. But I really want to try hard and commit to it for the long haul now. I want a baby, and I know that I need to lose weight to make it happen. Both Adam and I can't wait to start a family, I'm ready for my little girl Ivy Louise or my little boy Austin Peter.

Sammy and I went out for the day to Ripley Castle. We did this today, and it was actually really lovely. Ripley is beautiful, it's just my cup of tea, old quaint town with cute little shops. I loved it. We even paid to go into the Castle itself, and did a guided tour of the house as the family that own it still live in it. There was an absolutely stunning staircase and Sammy wants to get married there. It's been around since the 1500's or something, and there are painted portraits of the Ingilby family's ancestors. There are things like recipe books, diaries, letters... I'd love to have such a record of my family's past. Makes me even more determined to start being better at documenting our life.

Adam and I booked a two night trip to London for New Years Eve! I'm so excited. I love London, and we're stopping in what looks to be a lovely hotel, I absolutely cannot wait. I checked with Mum if she minded if we went. I feel like Christmas is going to be really hard this year, but so is New Years Eve. We always went to my Mum and Dad's for New Years Eve. I don't know what we'll do now without my Dad. So I'm glad to have something to look forward to, and to take my mind off of things and hopefully cheer me up after a sad Christmas.