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Pietro Politano

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Saturday, April 27, 2013
Last week I went to see a medium and I can't stop thinking about it.

I want to record it somehow before I completely forget as the memory of the things he said to me are already fading.

It was a group clairvoyancy evening at my best friends school. The medium, Pietro Politano, also works in some capacity with schools in our area as his 'day job', so he already knew my friend. I went with my Mum and my sister, and I thought it would just be something fun, and that even if we got a message I'd take it with a massive pinch of salt because he knows my friend, and I don't know what she might have told him about me/us, and that he would probably already know about the circumstances around my Dad's death.

Pietro came on and gave a short message to another woman, then he turned to my Mum and said "can I work with you?" My Mum said yes, he asked if we were there as a family and said he would speak to us as a family and he spoke about a couple of things and then he turned to me and said "can I work with you?"

I said yes.

He said a couple of things to me, which are fairly hazy in my memory but I think it was about how I had spirits around me trying to calm me, and I started to cry, and then he said "you see lights, don't you?" For some reason, I found it quite difficult to understand what he was saying to me and asked him to repeat himself and he said again "lights, you see lights, don't you?" It wasn't really a question, nothing he said was really a question, it was a statement. I was totally confused and everthing seemed really strange around me and I had a little voice in my head, tugging on my sleeve like a small child and trying to remind me of something that was just beyond my memory, and I kind of shook my head but then he said "sparkles, you see blue sparkles" and it hit me with 100% certainty.

After my Dad had died, I kept seeing little sparkly bits of light in front of my eyes. It worried me a little bit as when I'd blink they wouldn't go away and they were increasing in the time I could see them for and I could concentrate on them. I put it down to the fact that I was crying a lot and not sleeping properly and made a mental note to go to the opticians as it had been a while since I'd had my eyes tested, but then after one particular session of it in the kitchen which had been the longest yet, I didn't notice it happen again, but when Pietro said "blue sparkles" I knew these little dots of light were what he meant.

I hadn't told my friend about them - I hadn't told anyone about them.

Pietro nodded, he knew he was right and that it was just taking me a little while to realise what he was talking about. "Well," he said. "These lights, these sparkles, they're the spirits that are around you that you can see."

He'd already established that we'd lost someone very dear to us, and he said I talked to a photograph of them, which I do. When I see a photograph of my Dad, I talk to him, and it feels very intense. It feels differently than when I just talk to him in my head, it's almost as if I can feel him there with me, that I know he's heard me, that I can feel him reacting to what I'm saying.

He was talking to me for a bit longer then he went back to my Mum and asked her if she had any grandchildren, then he turned back to me and said "I've just got to let you know - there's a baby. There's a baby coming." Everyone on our table kind of exploded a bit then, my Mum and sister are desperate for me to have a baby and my friend and her Mum and Grandma were on our table too so they were saying some things too. It was so hard for me, that was what I so desperately wanted to hear. I ask God for a baby all the time, I ask my Dad to send me one too. For him to say that there was one coming, I just can't put into words how that made me feel. He then went on to say "I'm never normally wrong about these things, I once said it to a woman and she didn't believe me as she had been trying already for two and a half years, then I saw her not long after and she told me she was pregnant". I wish I could have asked him about it, asked him if he could elaborate, ask him what he saw, but no one knows that we've been trying for a baby. Whenever anyone asks them, we always say that we'd like to have kids but it's not quite the right time yet. I like that answer because it satisfies whoever is asking, but we're not lying. Obviously it hasn't been the right time yet otherwise we would surely have a baby by now.

He carried on talking to us, he was with us for quite a while. He said some other things, most of which I can't remember, he said things like last Christmas had been particularly hard on us all but this Christmas would be a family Christmas and would be much better, and he said that my sister had been having headaches, and we all just sat there like nodding dogs, all three of us, saying yes to absolutely everything he said. Then he said to us "does the name Stephen mean anything to you? Stephen or Steve?" I literally couldn't believe it. Everything he said to us had already been spot on but then he said this name to us. Stephen is my Dad's cousin, who died when I was a little girl in the same way my Dad did. I can only remember seeing him a few times as he was in the RAF and lived in Wales, but I loved him a lot, he was always so kind to us and made us laugh and I remember my Dad taking me out into the garden and sitting me down and telling me that he'd died. I remember it perfectly. I was astounded about the fact that Pietro had just given us his name, just came out with it. I've been to see another medium in the past and they've said something like "I've got someone here who 's name begins with a B... I mean, P... Peter... Paul... Pat..." so for this medium to just come right out and say the name Stephen straight away I was just... completely in awe. Then further in the conversation, he said he had a clean shaven man with him, and my Mum couldn't think who it would be, and then Pietro said "does the name Harry mean anything to you?" Harry is my Uncle also on my Dad's side who has also passed away. He gave us not just one name, but two!

The thing about it all as well is that everything he said to me, everything he said to my Mum, everything he said to my sister... My friend wouldn't have known any of it. He didn't say anything specifically about my Dad. She might have known my Uncle Stephen's name, but that would be it.

At the end of the show, we went to talk to him and my Mum asked him about having a private reading done, and he gave her a card. Then he turned to me and asked me if I was okay, and told me "everything will be okay. Stop whittling." I almost laughed out loud at that, as I have done nothing but whittle on in my mind and to Adam about babies for goodness knows how long. I stress about it so much.

My mind is officially blown, and I'm so thankful I went. I've felt such a sense of peace and calm since I wsaw him. I feel like, because of everything that has happened to us over the past year or so, I have not been myself, and even my faith was shaken. I feel more like myself now than I have done for a long time, and it hasn't stopped me hurting about my Dad, but it has helped me. I feel restored in myself and in my faith. I feel like I know now that even though when I speak to God I might not get an answer straight away but it doesn't mean that he hasn't heard me. I 100% believe that Pietro was communicating with the spirit world.

I can't wait to go and see him again.

Living room redecoration: Part 2

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Friday, January 11, 2013
Some photos from during our living room redecoration:

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Adam's Dad painting the walls for us

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Adam spotted this table outside a junk shop driving to a job one day. He told me about it and I drove out to the shop, and bought it - for £5! Bargain. It has the TV on now, and I really love it.

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The new fire on it's maiden voyage after just being installed by Adam.

Living room redecoration: Part 1

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Thursday, January 10, 2013
When we first moved into our house, we decorated everything in a bit of a rush. We didn't have loads of money to spare on decorating and we had to do every room in one go as we had knocked the house back to bare brick, and started completely again from scratch. We moved walls and swapped rooms around and took rooms out. It was a big job.

Now that I know a bit more about decorating, and I have more of an idea about what looks good and seen things that I like home-decor wise, I was unhappy with some of the rooms in the house. Mainly the living room and the kitchen. The living room was so plain and boring. We had some nice wallpaper on the chimney breast wall but the walls were plain and neutral and we didn't have any photos or personal bits up around the room or on the walls or anything. So, we decided to redecorate and start with the living room.

Here are the before pictures of our living room redecoration:

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Edinburgh

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Wednesday, December 19, 2012
playing bagpipes

During December, I had some weekends booked off work which I'd put in months before. So Adam asked me if I'd like to go for a visit to Edinburgh. Of course I said yes! We'd been to Edinburgh once before but it was a bit of a flying visit. I loved it, and had an amazing time. We drove up, and booked a hotel which ended up being absolutely lovely and having the perfect location.

It was nice to get away and have some time just the two of us. We kept it very low key and in fact we were back in our hotel room after a lovely meal out at about 9pm and asleep for about 10pm. We didn't wake up until 9am the next morning, it was absolutely glorious, especially as I could probably count the nights of unbroken sleep since we got Roxy on one hand.

We went around on a sight seeing bus and saw all the sites, and walked down a massive long street from the castle with loads of shops on. There was a big market there, complete with ice skating rink. We bought a couple of decorations for the tree, and it was lovely.

Edinburgh I'll be seeing you again!

Cousins

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Monday, December 10, 2012
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Sunday Morning Walks

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Wednesday, November 21, 2012
Sunday morning walks have started becoming a bit of a ritual for our little family. I have to say, I've been really enjoying them too. I always hate the idea of going for a walk but when I go for one I really enjoy it. We've been walking around Worsbrough Res mostly, but have been up to Langsett a couple of times. I took my phone with me and snapped a few photos when we were there last Sunday. It's really beautiful.

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I'm looking forward to our walk next Sunday!

101 things to do before I die

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Wednesday, November 14, 2012
101 things to do before i die

Emma's version:

1. Get married
2. Have a baby
3. Adopt a child
4. Get to a healthy BMI
5. Be a size 12
6. Live abroad for an extended period
7. Work for myself full time
8. Get a degree
9. Visit NYC and; eat a Levain cookie, get hot chocolate with marshmallow at City Bakery, go to Shake Shack
10. Climb Kilimanjaro
11. Go on a food tour roadtrip of USA with Beth
12. Have Jonas Peterson or another amazing photographer take photos of Adam and I
13. Visit all 7 continents
14. Go on safari
15. Skydive
16. Cage dive with great white sharks
17. Start a YouTube channel and have 1000 followers
18. Snorkel at Lady Elliott Island again
19. Take Mum on a dream holiday
20. Live in a city again
21. Be an Auntie
22. Visit friends overseas
23. Wear a bikini
24. Own a Luis Vuitton weekend bag
25. Go abroad on a business trip
26. See killer whales/orcas in the wild
27. Try almond milk
28. Go skinny dipping
29. Get a masters degree
30. Win an award (I don’t necessarily mind what in!)
31. Write a book
32. Travel to China
33. Do artisan baking course
34. Have market stall selling artisan baking
35. Go to Washington, Conneticut to see the town that inspired Gilmore Girls
36. Learn graphic design
37. Set up and run an etsy shop
38. Be good at crochet
39. Be good at knitting
40. Visit Big Sur, stop in a very fancy hotel with private hot tub on own private terrace
41. Go back to Australia
42. Make cheese
43. Go on a massive clothes shopping spree once I reach a size 12
44. Go to Tokyo Disneyland
45. Take children on an amazing holiday
46. Have a tattoo
47. Touch a tiger
48. Take my children to a big festival
49. See the Lion King in a theatre
50. See Rocky Horror Picture Show in a theatre
51. Donate my eggs if possible
52. Visit Iceland
53. Travel in Japan
54. Drive a monster truck
55. Go to Glastonbury for Dad
56. Knit a cardigan
57. Jump off a waterfall
58. Visit 50 countries
59. Visit Washington DC
60. See inside a volcano
61. Have a photo I took printed
62. Have something I wrote printed
63. Own my home outright
64. Own a second home outright
65. Watch the salmon run in a peak year
66. Go storm chasing and see a tornado
67. Stay in a Four Seasons hotel
68. Go in a hot air balloon
69. See the Aurora Borealis
70. Go to Coachella
71. See the following animals in the wild; gorilla, lion, tiger, elephant, orangutan
72. Swim with dolphins
73. Walk coast to coast from England
74. Conquer my fear of spiders
75. Go zip lining
76. Go skinny dipping
77. Be able to do the following yoga poses: dancer, wheel, crow, scorpion
78. Swim in Devil's Pool at Victoria Falls.
79. Brew my own beer/wine - that tastes nice!
80. Go to Loch Ness
81. Visit the door to Hell
82. Climb the stairs to Heaven
83. Get acupuncture
84. Go to Plitvice Lakes National Park
85. Go to the Great Blue Hole
86. Stand in the centre of Stonehenge
87. Be in Mexico for Dia de los Muertos
88. Go on a sunset lava cruise in Hawaii
89. Go to Lake Hillier
90. Learn to spin a car into a parking space
91. Go to Maho Beach
92. Go to Mass Games in North Korea
93. Learn to speak Spanish
94. Visit 100 countries and join TCC
95. Have cooking lessons in: Mexico, Thailand, India, Japan
96. Visit a bioluminescent bay in Puerto Rico
97. Take trapeze lessons
98. Hand feed flamingos on flamingo beach, Renaissance Island, Aruba
99. See a wild polar bear
100. Lunch in December at Petersham Nurseries
101. Go on holiday on my own

Goals completed: 5/95

...to be continued...