36

Today is my birthday. I'm 36. I've spent so many birthdays in the past crying, feeling like he doesn't love me, feeling like he doesn't care about me, feeling wrong and like I'm wasting his time for wanting to take part in some of the traditional birthday type of stuff - breakfast in bed, cards, presents, etc Today is a new low though - he has completely forgotten it's my birthday. I'm not even upset. I'm numb to it. Crying or getting upset doesn't change anything, he doesn't want to care so he doesn't. It feels very sad for me though.

My husband.

“There is no greater risk than matrimony.
But there is nothing happier than a happy marriage.”
–Benjamin Disraeli, 1870

in a letter to Queen Victoria’s daughter Louise,
congratulating her on her engagement.
via the book Committed by Elizabeth Gilbert
I'm feeling incredibly grateful for my husband right now. He's just rung me to chat as he was driving from one job to another and he asked me what was wrong as I sounded a bit down. I told him I was worried about tomorrow, about going to work and having a one to one with my boss as my sales have been, and always will be, terrible and I'm going to be put onto a performance review at work if they didn't improve (which they haven't).

Adam was so sweet to me and told me that I didn't have to worry about working; that if I was unhappy and it was making me miserable I could just leave. That it was his job to provide for us in a monetary sense and that we make such a good team and look after each other and he wants to look after me.

It made me cry. I am so, so lucky to have him and there's not a day goes by that I'm not aware of this. I love him and appreciate him and hope more than anything that we'll be together forever.

Sunday Morning Walks

Sunday morning walks have started becoming a bit of a ritual for our little family. I have to say, I've been really enjoying them too. I always hate the idea of going for a walk but when I go for one I really enjoy it. We've been walking around Worsbrough Res mostly, but have been up to Langsett a couple of times. I took my phone with me and snapped a few photos when we were there last Sunday. It's really beautiful.













I'm looking forward to our walk next Sunday!

A cosy kind of weekend

Hello! How was your weekend?

Mine was lovely – quiet and relaxing! I went to the market to do a little bit of shopping.



I’m starting a new job tonight, and the hours are 5:30-10:30pm, so I wanted to get some things in to make some meals in advance which I could freeze to make it easier for Adam and I. Adam was at work on Saturday so when I got home I spent some time with this cute little face:





I spent the rest of the day cooking up a storm (got a recipe or two to post out of it too!) and when Adam came home he surprised me with these gorgeous flowers:



We took Izzy out for a walk:



Then came home and had a delicious dinner together, ate some ice cream and then cuddled up watching a film! Sunday was spent working, then out for a curry with my parents and sisters.

Hope you had a good weekend too, let me know what you got up to! Also, do you have any tips for meals that are easily made in bulk and can be frozen? So far, my freezer is full of chilli, lasagne and soup!